A Little Off – Redesigning my site.

I am in the process of redesigning my site so if something seems a bit off – please feel free to let me know. I’m still new at formatting. Thanks for your patience!

Trying to figure the process out is time consuming and can get a bit overwhelming unless you actually get feedback from other WordPress Writers – and trust me – they do help. Also the Q/A sections of the Community pool and guides at WordPress will help out as well. Thanks again for understanding and all the input!


Searching…… reaching…… empty handed?


Over the course of the last 2 weeks, I have struggled for something to write about. Sure, I have many thoughts and ideas throughout my day but nothing that I truly want to write about that would reflect my true feelings, emotions and nature. I guess what I am looking for is something with “meat on its bones”. (Speaking of Meat – I love to cook for those of you who do not know). Unlike some of the great Authors here on WordPress, I find myself wanting to write and express myself but when I have a chance to sit down and write something, I draw a blank – so freaking frustrating!

So I have decided to set up camp and leave this up for the day, go about my normal routine and see what comes to mind – a few lines at a time. Sound Fun?? Well we shall see! (speaking of camp – I really need to finish my “to-do” list on my RV so that I can go camping).

First off – it’s not as easy as it sounds. I walk away to do something and my mind wanders back to this page – back to my un-thoughts, because as soon as I sit down, I lose it. I have so much in this life to be thankful for, so much love, happiness and blessings that I can write about, I just can’t bring them to the forefront. I am starting to get a bit worried about this actually – does this mean that I am coming down with depression, has my life gotten so mundane and routine? I am going to force myself to find inspiration. Not that I need inspiration to live my life….. (speaking of inspiration, do you know that God loves you?).

Eureka – I have found my inspiration. A worthy cause to invest my time and energy in. I have the greatest idea of all times. At least for this minute……. So now I must bid this post adieu and say  – Empty Handed? – I think not!

Don’t give up! Keep the positive flowing – fight the good fight – and keep writing!sword


My Secret Love

My love of writing developed early on in life – I guess I have always loved to write but I didn’t slow down long enough to realize it and really get involved. I took it for granted in my Law Enforcement career in that I was always writing some form of document, search warrant, daily activity logs and such but not until later on did I experiment around a little. I have written so many poems, notes, letters (many of which never to be seen), and I have always been very secretive about my writings. As a man I thought it to be a sign of weakness or something and I did not like the thought of people reading and falsely judging me on my inner most thoughts and feelings. I was still young enough to where I really didn’t know what my inner most thoughts should be or where they would take me.

When I write, I can say every little detail, I can translate any feeling that I want to and I can make sense of my own world. These things I cannot do verbally for some reason. When I speak, I get tongue tied, I get all twisted up and I lose my train of thought and end up way off base at a loss for words. Imagine that, me at a loss for words. In person, I am a reserved quiet guy who keeps most of my thoughts to myself. I rarely speak up unless I have to and even then, I “watch” what I say. Never one to be outspoken – unlike my Wife. She says what she feels and feels what she says. Wow – I wish I could be like that!

I have tried over the years to write a journal of some sort but I always ended up throwing it away or dismissing it for one reason or another. It was not until the last two years where I realized that  I was old enough to where I don’t care what other people think. I have a right to my own feelings and thoughts and whether it offends somebody or not is their problem. Now don’t get me wrong, I love people and I have always been a people person, always taking into account their feelings but just like them, I matter! I have earned my feelings and thoughts, I have paid my dues over the years and I have life experiences that have made me who I am today. I thank God every day that I am not the person that I used to be. I may not be where I want to be, but I am certainly not the person that I used to be.

more to come………